Pathetic

Seriously, you guys. What is wrong with me.

I just came to the ultimate realization that I let boys control my life. I look at every boy that glances at me sideways or every boy that I think is cute and wonder, "Is he The One? Could he be my boyfriend?" And its not a conscious thought, which is why I overlooked this issue for so long, but its there like that one hideous shirt you keep in your closet because you just can't bring yourself to get rid of it but you never actually wear it either. And every time something doesn't happen with whoever is on my mind in that second, I'm disappointed.

HOW PATHETIC IS THAT.

And in that way I realized just how immature I really am. Well you know what, its time for this chick to grow up. I'm going to stop acting like a weak minded little jellyfish (no offense to any jellyfish/jellyfish lovers out there). I'm going to stop looking for someone to chase me. I'm going to stop...that's it, I'm just going to stop. Remember last year when I tried to go on a boy diet? Wow. I just reread some of my posts from around this time last year and realized I'm in almost the exact same predicament. Anyway, if you don't remember click the link to read up on that. My point in bringing it up is that it didn't work. I was still looking even after I said I wouldn't. But I'm older and wiser now (ha ha), and I think reinitiating the boy diet is a good idea. Time to stop worrying and waiting and wishing for things that are never happening. Time to stop feeling sick from nerves. Time to stop using anaphora (really though, my use of rhetorical devices is on point today).

So here is the official plan. I'm going to stop thinking about, wondering about, and looking at boys. No, this does not mean I'm going to start looking at girls, for any of you with twisted minds out there. It means that I'm going to really throw myself into my studies. It means that I'll have more room in my brain to retain information from classes and for finals. It means that...crap, there's another anaphora. What the heck.

Anyway, I think you get the idea. So, the boy diet is back! And I'm confident in myself this time of seeing it through. I can't guarantee that this blog is going to be super interesting anymore (just kidding please keep reading!!), but I can still fill it with the awesome adventures of me running around like a headless chicken while trying to keep up with my hectic life.

Wish me luck, friends. Not that I'm going to need it this time. Confidence is the key to everything in life.

xoxo