Work Hard, Nap Hard

Today I had two morning classes, a job interview, an audition for an on campus play, I had to finish reading a book for script analysis and the Pretty Little Liars season finale came on (OMG I DIED).

Today I took a nap.

Yes, all of the above is true. It is possible. But only if you're Superwoman Collegepants like I am (which you're not).

My job interview went really well. It was at a Catholic school. I applied to be an after school program assistant. I would absolutely love that job because children make my world go round, but it definitely doesn't pay as much as the massage place. Unless I could start substituting there, which the principal did offer me. Anyway, she was really sweet and she seemed to like me a lot. I should hear back from here later this week, although I still have to make up my mind if I'm going to take that job if it is offered to me. If I was just looking for a job to pay for gas and groceries that would be fine. But I also need a job that will pay for Insight now. I hate making decisions. I can hardly decide what to eat or wear most of the time.

My audition...well I honestly don't know what to think of it. The director cut me and the guy I was auditioning with off pretty early in the scene (which he did say he would do, I just expected to get a teensy bit more of the scene in) and he didn't have any feedback. Which I ultimately took as "you weren't the best we've seen, so we need to see no more of you." I mainly took it that way for two legitimate reasons. 1) I overheard a girl behind me running lines with a guy and she was terrible. He sent her home as soon as her audition was done too. 2) Some people that got to audition last night got callbacks for tonight. I feel like if he liked me he would have asked me to stay and do a monologue too. So I don't have high hopes for the play at all. But we'll see.

So this thing happens often where I'm so tired by the time I'm finishing a blog post that I just can't think of a cute/funny/thoughtful ending line. So I'm just going to say a very generic goodnight.

So...goodnight.

xoxo

Its the beeest daaay eeeveeerr!

If you don't know what song that title is quoting, there is something wrong with you. Not me at all. You.

I seriously had one of the best days of my life today. I got to go to the acting school today which was so amazing. I also forgot to tell you guys that I got an email back from one of the places I applied for a job. Its a massage clinic. They had a group interview set up for Sunday. We pretty much just showed how well we pitched a script they sent us to memorize about their membership plans they have and learned more about the job we're applying for. Its a really great job actually. The main task is to sell memberships to clients. We'd make $10 an hour plus commission for the memberships we sell. Talk about making BANK. Anyway, the manager said that if they liked us then she would call us and set up an individual interview with just her, then if she wants to hire us she sends us into an individual interview with the owner of the place, but at that point you're pretty much hired. Well today she called me to set up an individual interview!! That was definitely one of the three main highlights of my day.

The other one was definitely the news of being able to go to Insight/going to Insight (yes I'm counting them as one highlight, mainly because four would be an awkward number). I just love Beth to pieces already. We got up in front of the class and just answered questions, then she gave us feedback on how we handled ourselves in front of people, told us about any nervous habits we may or may not realize we have, and things like that. I watched a few people go first and paid a lot of attention to the feedback, so after I went Beth said she didn't have anything written down to tell me to fix. I was pretty proud of that. I also mentioned that I sing and she asked me to sing for them. So I sang a little diddy and got a little applause for it (yet another confidence booster). It was also just really interesting to hear other people's stories. There are some fascinating people and great story tellers in that class.

The third highlight is that there is a cute boy in the class. He's super hot and totally adorable at the same time (no, I didn't actually mean to practically quote Crazy, Stupid Love right there). When he walked in to wait for the first section of class to be over, I was lookin' like 'DAMN he fiiiine!' (wop, wop, wop, wop...) But then when all the seats in the waiting room were full and another girl walked in, he got up and gave her his seat. And after class he tried to give me his email address so he didn't seem too forward with a phone number. So I suggested giving him my phone number and he seemed happy to take it. Maybe that was his plan all along. Anyway it worked because he's texting me right now.

As soon as I stop looking for boys...I swear.

Anyway, more updates on that to come. Right now I need to go to bed so I can survive my 8 AM tomorrow.

One last thought. After a speech or speaking in class or a job interview or whatever it is, don't second guess yourself. And during whatever speaking thing you're doing, don't be in your own head too much. That's the main note Beth gave us today that really stuck with me and that helped me stayed centered and not fidget. When you overthink where to put your hands or how to stand, you lose connection with the audience and you look awkward. That's something I'm definitely going to try to master between this class, Beth's class in real school, and my public speaking class.

So here's to an amazing day and a bright future ahead of me.

xoxo

This has gotta be the good life

I. Am. So. So. So. Happy.

I called my dad today and he gave me the OK to enroll in the Insight School of acting.

...!!!!!!!!

I am so dead right now because my heart has stopped beating. I really wasn't sure I'd be able to enroll this semester, and I'm pretty sure the next chance would be next semester, but I can and I'm so excited!!! You should be able to tell how excited I am because I never use that many exclamation points.

So I just have to kill time for another four hours, and then off I go to take the first steps in realizing my dreams! This is it guys. This is the beginning of my destiny, I can feel it.

So one day when I'm famous you guys can tell all your friends that you knew who I am first and you read my blog and you liked me before anyone else knew me. I'm giving you that free pass. You're welcome (if you watch Awkward. imagine that in Sadie's voice).

xoxo

Productive

I have felt so focused and driven the past few days. Much more so than I have in a really long time.

I forgot to tell you guys yesterday, but I've had a slight set-back in the work force. Okay, a pretty significant set-back. An old boss told me he'd hire me this fall, but now he can't hire anyone, so the job I was banking on having (literally, my bank account is running pretty dry these days) is no longer an option. And I especially need one since I want to join that film acting school. I met with my professor today and I'm seriously in love with the place. But level one classes start on Monday, so I have to enroll before then, I just don't know how we're going to be able to pay for it. If I could have started that job when I got here, or even next week, I would be able to pay for it myself. Instead, I spent today writing a whole resume, looking for jobs through UNCW's career center website (which is actually super convenient and I'm really grateful for it), and applying for a few. I have more to do tomorrow, but I got a lot done today. Pounding the pavement of the information highway is actually kind of exciting, even though its a bit more work than I anticipated. It has made me feel very accomplished though.

I have one more semi funny story before I log off for the night. Mine and Sweta's friend Anna is visiting Wilmington this weekend. She knew about me being hypnotized, so while we were at the apartment and I was finishing up a cover letter for another job application, she randomly said, "Olivia, hypnotize me!" Being a veteran of hypnosis, I thought I could do it. I have a strobe light on my phone that I turned on and had her focus on, then I went through the first part of what the hypnotist did to us at the show the past two years which was telling her to relax every part of her body and focus on the light and my voice and all that. And I was doing pretty well...until I forgot how to transition from the going to sleep to the actual sleep to the following commands. Needless to say she started laughing in the middle of falling asleep. So we tried to look up videos on self-hypnosis, and one video got me really relaxed, but nothing like the show. It was fun though.

Whether that made you laugh or not, I'm about to pass out so I'm going to bed now.

xoxo

Slow

So all my classes seem like they're going to be pretty good. At this point I really like all my professors. Like, a lot. I've heard nothing but good things about all of them, and in class they all seem really kind and lenient and passionate about their subject. You always want a professor who not only likes what they're teaching but really loves it, or else everyone suffers.

My last class for today is Performance of Literature, a Communications Studies course, and I think the professor for that class is going to be my favorite. She insisted we call her Beth, not Professor or Miss anything. She was just so vibrant and engaging. She didn't go over the syllabus because she said it was a waste of the first day of class. She is active in the film industry around town and even has a school for film and TV acting, which is what I want to do! I'm going to meet her tomorrow to see about joining her school. I'm really excited.

Other than that not much has happened...at all. My life is crawling at the same rate as molassas right now. Nothing is happening. I've been to class and come home and watched TV with Sweta and gone apartment shopping and that about wraps it up. I really hope the past few days aren't any indication of the way the whole semester is going to go, because I might just shrivel up and dessicate from the lack of excitement in my life.

Also I would like to point out something that I believe is evidence of my maturity compared to last year. I haven't mentioned any boys once. Remember last year when boys were all I could think about? Sure I still notice when a guy is cute, but I feel so much different than I did last year about it. As much as I would love to have a boyfriend, its not as high up on my list of priorities. And personally, I think that is so mature of me.

Well after my three hour nap I'm pretty starved, so I'm off to eat some ramen and update my planner like a good little broke college girl.

xoxo

Stressful

The last few days of my life have been some of the most stressful. This is something I've never told you guys, but when I get stressed out all the tension goes to my shoulders and the bottom of my feet. Which is why I frequently ask people to rub those parts of my body, though those people rarely comply (especially my sister. She never does). The knots in my shoulders are like baseball pitcher mounds on my body right now.

I've spent a lot of money in the past few days, though not for nothing. I finally have a bedside table now, which means I'm up to one actual drawer and down to one box in my room. As soon as I get a dresser I can get rid of that box and the suitcases housing my clothes that don't get hung up. I actually feel like this is a room that I could live in for real, not just a room I'm passing through.

So my story for the day. My friend asked me a few weeks ago to audition for a student film she and a few other people were producing. I read the script and saw that there was only one girl part. When I got to the audition today, I was the only girl there. So I was feeling pretty good about being casted. Then the email went out with the cast list and guess whose name was next to the female characters? Not mine. My friend's. She didn't even audition with us, read with any of the males there auditioning, or say she was going to audition at all. She just got the part. I felt so betrayed. If she was going to take the part anyway, she shouldn't have told me about the opportunity. I'm pretty over it by this point, I'm just disappointed now. Between that fiasco, shopping today, orientation before, moving in, worrying about money, unpacking, worrying about money more, unpacking more...I'm exhausted.

Oh, and I have my first day of classes of sophomore year tomorrow.

If I don't ever blog again, I'm probably dead.

PS. The color of the title of this blog and the color of the of the posts are the colors of my room! Cute, huh?

I'm Back

So guys. I decided that I just can't stay away from blogging. During the past two days I've just been thinking about great one liners I could write or what I would talk about if I still had a blog and then suddenly it hit me that, hey, I actually still want to write.

Ergo, my brand new blog for a brand new year with a brand new me.

Guys. I am currently sitting in my room in my apartment. MY room in MY apartment (that I share with two other girls) with MY bathroom connected to it (that I share with me, myself, and I) and all MY stuff in it. I can't even handle myself right now. I feel too grown up. I thought I was so cool last year cause I was in a dorm room (whoa!) and I was among other people who go to college and all that jazz, but now...this is intense. Surprisingly though, I slept very well last night. Well I guess its not that surprising since I woke up at five in the morning yesterday to drive to Wilmington, moved freshmen into their dorm rooms all morning, moved my stuff into my apartment (whoa!!) all afternoon, and still stayed up until one thirty in the morning only to wake up at six to get ready to work an orientation all day today and then come home (to my apartment) and go shopping and keep setting up my room and-

Is it sad that it took me that long to realize how bad of a run on sentence that is?

My brain has been so scattered.

Anyway, I guess that's the basic run down of the past two days. We continue orientation tomorrow, but this time all the freshmen go to an event called Convocation, or "reverse graduation" as they call it. I've already seen a lot of my freshmen from the summer. They're all so sweet. Some of them don't think I will remember them and it's the cutest thing, I swear. I also think its funny that I think of them as babies, when in reality many of them are older than me. But I will continue to think of them as my babies for as long as I live.

Moving on from my momentary midnight histrionics, I would like to add that I got hypnotized again this year at the hypnotist show. It was so much fun again. Except this time he didn't call on me to go up to the stage first. I came from the audience. So everyone around me was laughing and taking videos (I was with friends and I sat near other friends so there are pleeenty of embarassing dancing and weird facial expressions caught on camera) and moving out of my way as far as possible. I guess they didn't realize that I knew what was happening and I wasn't going to hit them. If you've never been hypnotized before, you just really wouldn't understand the feeling, though I have tried to explain it to numerous friends, acquaintances, and strangers over the past two days. It's so fun.

Anyway, enough of my banter for the night. I will be updating more on my apartment status (I just can't get over how cool that is. MY apartment) and classes and all that soon.

Thank you for reading. It truly means so much. And thats the main reason I decided to continue to document my life in short, frequently posted passages on the Internet.

xoxo